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Personal Log
Monday, 26 January 2009
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Goodbye teenage years.
Thursday, 15 January 2009
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More needles
more dye
more scans
more pain
more questions.
Oh joy.
Wednesday, 14 January 2009
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Tomorrow is the big day, the day I find out when my surgery is, I will also be missing both my classes that day, but thankfully since it is the first week of the semester I should be ok!
My goal is to make Dean's List again this year, I'm pretty sure I can pull it off, the only class I haven't attended so far is Geography because the class is only every other Saturday, so I'm hoping that class will be as good as my others have been so far.
I even have my holiday on Monday planned out!
Anyone else getting the day off? Got any plans?
I'm going to the beach to see the sun rise with someone special... talk about getting up early!
Sunday, 11 January 2009
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My new anthem
You've got a lot of nerve and I've got a lot of fingers to point
While you were busy building knowledge I was already right
I know a voice like yours is not a weapon at all
Even mine is not a chisel for a thickened skull
Chant your anthems to the deaf
And we can sit here and cry until there's nothing left
Or we can take our voices with our hands
Make like knives and make demands
We'll take our voices - with our hands
We'll Make like knives - we'll make demands
I'm burning bridges for the last time
I'm breaking habits for the first time
I saw my future today, it said I'm going away
And I still haven't sung the last line
On my way down...
I'm not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
Not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
And every day of my life I can feel it getting harder to breathe
With every minute ticking by I'm getting ready to leave
I know a life like mine is not a reason to fret
But I've been busy building scars that you will never forget
If only thirty three years can save my life
I've had twentyfour more to make things right
When I'm taken to the sky and you're still here
You can clear your mind and dry your tears
We'll take our voices - with our hands
We'll Make like knives - we'll make demands
I'm burning bridges for the last time
I'm breaking habits for the first time
I saw my future today, it said I'm going away
And I still haven't sung the last line
On my way down..
I'm not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
Not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
I'm taken home - and you're still here
Just clear your mind - and dry your tears
We'll take our voices - with our hands
We'll Make like knives - we'll make demands
I'm not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
I'm not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
I'm not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
Not ready to lay, I'm not ready to fade
I'm not ready to die
I'm not ready to die!
Wednesday, 07 January 2009
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It's amazing what a little paper and ink will do for one's stress level, 6 pages of ramblings in tiny, clumsy handwriting and I feel so relaxed.
Is there a point to it? Nah, but with some writing exercises there isn't a point other than getting those juicy juices flowing again.
I'm pretty excited about this upcoming semester. Only a few more days of break left.
I must get on with finding those textbooks.
Sunday, 04 January 2009
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A year ago this very day was so much different than today.
Today I cried happy tears, last year I cried hopeless "heartbroken" tears.
Today my stomach hurt because there is something wrong with my gallbladder. Last year I was throwing up on the side of the road because I was so upset and shocked.
Today I thanked God all day long for all His blessings and provision. Last year I questioned whether or not He loved me or knew what He was doing.
Thank you God for last year, because without it I wouldn't have had today.
Wednesday, 31 December 2008
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Currently
Transatlanticism
By Death Cab for Cutie
New Year
see relatedSo this is the New Year
2008
I shall not miss you.
You were the worst year of my short life, I hope I have no other years quite like you.
I hated you, I abhorred you, I cursed you, I spat at you; you made me cry.
2008
I will think of you often.
You were the best year of my life. This is the year I saw my God move in and through me, cradling me in the midst of turmoil. You were the year that held the answer to all me "Why?"s and it is wonderful.
The year I failed my first class (thankfully it was well within the drop period but still... no hope for a passing with a final that counted as 50% overall grade *shudder*)The year I met my future husband (cue gags and awwes) The year I went to NYC for the first time, in what has to be the greatest spring break trip ever.
The year of my shortest relationship (4 days.... lol so pathetic)
The year that ended my first longest one (1 year and 13 days)
The year that began the last relationship (3 months and counting)
The year that tore everything apart and brought other pieces back together
The year of the Voltage, Zim parties, LAN parties, side pokes for talking bad about the self, theological discussions til all hours of the morning, Buck Run, Mud pits, Therapy shopping, lots of Mt. Dew, Late nights, early mornings, jobs and lack thereof, ice cream, tears, laughter, hugs, road trips, break downs at 1am out of town, CONCERTS! totally the year of the concerts soo many good ones, Xbox (RIP... for now) movies, homework, skipped classes, Dollar Burger night, Glory Days and their delicious cheesy bacon fries, Roanoke, Mountains and sea shores, Bermuda, Georgia, $4 dollar a gallon gas to $1.45 a gallon now w00t, Pirate Hats and jokes, friends and pseudo-enemies/rivals (I saw you lurking the school halls) and much much more.
This one's for you kid.
Happy New Year, I hope '09 is as awesome as '08... without all the drama =)
Wednesday, 17 December 2008
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Tuesday is gonna suck.
Thursday, 11 December 2008
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It's rainy, and squishy outside. It's not cold but not warm. It's mildly depressing, but in a good way.
Yes, it is the last day of class.
And yes, it's the perfect day to go book shopping.
Monday, 08 December 2008
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Suddenly I feel so very young.
I cannot wait for tomorrow, it will be an adventure I have been looking forward to for a long time and a memory that will forever be cherished.
And I cannot wait for spring 2010.
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- Name: Megan
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 6/13/2004
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